Day 16
Within the frustration, there is a struggle that ensues. What I have been working on so diligently to release and surrender is clinging onto me. There is a part of me that is ending. However, another part of me is willing to continue to fight in order to keep my patterns and habits the same. These fragments must pass from me and slip deeper and deeper into the Underworld for the Dark Mother to help heal and recycle into healing energies.
With a deep breath, I stand before the opened doorway, preparing for another release. It is a more final release I hope, in order to take another step forward on my path and into the unknown. Holding the parts of myself that I had hoped to hide and quietly discard, I now hold them tenderly in my hands. I look upon those parts not with pity, but with love and compassion and mercy. There is a whisper within me that suggests to offer forgiveness and acceptance. Can I offer myself the grace I have longed for, for a very long time? Do I have the courage to do so? Do I have the strength? Only time may truly tell what the outcome will be. Until then, I stand upon the precipice of a new day and a new hope.
May the grace of the Goddess bless us all to have the wisdom in order to grant ourselves this act of mercy and grace.
Renee Bedard, The Whispering Crow
The Whispering Crow 